|Last major studio melt down.|
I used to have studio melt downs pretty regularly. They were intense too. Lot's of tears and smashing things on the floor. I don't think it was the painting failures that I was stressed about as it was my financial failures and complete lack of a coherent portfolio. Regardless, it was a pathetic display. Melt downs and flip outs should only be a strategy for those day job bosses that you never respected. Nowadays, I figure: Why put yourself in line with those people?
|So much wasted paint.|
Even back then I never took pride in destroying my studio. I usually just sat in it afterward and stressed myself out about how I couldn't afford to ruin all of my painting supplies. If you feel yourself get too stressed to function, switch into some light sketching or a brainless task like gessoing canvas. Though you should keep your routine and paint even when you are working from a sleep or inspiration deficit, you shouldn't force yourself to paint through debilitating aggravation. Keep making the art but go easy on yourself for the day. Keep your emotions manageable and your judgment clear so you don't accelerate life's natural evolution from self deprecation to self defecation. We all probably have some embarrassing high school writing/art buried in a drawer somewhere. Why make more of it now?